MY FIRST TRUE LOVE: "THE T.V SERIES LIKE"

"Love is when there are a million things you want to say to someone,

but when they look you in the eyes and hold you in their arms

nothing in life matters other than being with that person at that moment."

I fell in love and got hurt so many times. I still remember the day when my heart was first broken. That love, I will never ever forget. That love will always be a part of me. That time was so difficult for me. The situation is so crazy. I felt so alone that time. Hurt and angry at the same time. I don't know who are the true people anymore. I want to, But I can't trust anyone. It's hard to be in a relationship that in both party they can't accept the situation or the relationship. You have to be strong. But sometimes there still a moment that I can't handle it anymore. Even though how hard we fight there still a time I found myself crying. And praying that everythings be accepted and respect.

That love, ohh that love. It's like a T.V series. To much actions and dramas. I never expected to be in that situation. Our friends sometimes told us that, the kind and situation we have in a relationship can be put in T.V, which is we agreed, then laugh.

I still remember the time we had misunderstanding. Just to make it up to me. He did'nt went to school, instead He waited me outside my school and then when He saw me with my friends He stand up in front of me holding a boquet of flowers and saying His sorry. I was so shocked and the only thing i did is put my hands in my mouth and sed " Oh my God HOWEH". Everybody looking at me. Looks like they are waiting if im gonna forgive Him or not. But ofcoures i forgive Him, coz I am not a stone hearted person. Imagine a guy infront of u holding flowers and telling you hes sorry. Thats so sweet. And so heart melting scene. And then after, we went to the mall watch a movie, then eat at chowking (beefwanton with not so hot, hot sauce), then we went to baywalk. It's felts so amazing if your with the guy you really love and having a so natural conversation while walking. Laughing, holding hands.

Thats one of our more happy moments together. But that love now is just a memory. Deserve to be kept and cherish. Now were just friends. But a good friend.

"Love is always patient and kind, it's never jealous.

Love is never boastful or concieted, it is never rude or selfish,

it is not take offense, it is not resendable."

"You will never forget your first love. That's what makes it so special. You love so hard, so deeply, and so intensely because you don’t know any different. It's the best until it is over. Then you hurt like you've never been hurt before. Eventually you love again, but you love differently. You will love more carefully, more cautiously. Just know that there is so much more love waiting for you, but there will always only be one first."

HONESTY:

"When you're in love with someone it inspires you and gives you hope.

You have faith that even if you can't be with them on earth, that if God wills,

you will be with them one day in heaven."

"I may not get to see you as often as I like.

I may not get to hold you in my arms all through the night.

But deep in my heart I truly know, you're the one that I love,

and I can't let you go."

Honesty is a very important ingredient in a relationship.

In any kind of relationship.

You can find new friends if you are honest.

And specially "LOVE".

Just being your self means already honesty.

U can gain trust if ur honest.

Don't be afraid. Don't be shy. Don't let your love flew with air again.

Just believe in you self. Be honest.

Try to LOVE and BELOVED.

HAPPINESS:

"Happiness is not found at the end of the road, it is experienced along the way.

So take not for granted each moment of your life and you will find a reason to be happy each day."

HAPPINESS:

How can people say that they are happy?

Me, sometimes I can't say weather I am happy or sad.

I used to be sad. So when I am happy it's nothings different.

"Happiness is the only thing on earth that cannot be paid by any diamonds, gold or money."

"Happiness is as a butterfly which, when pursued is always beyond our grasp,

but if you sit down quietly may alight upon you."

"Laughter is like a fresh new day, each giggle is the dawn of a new morning;

brighten up your day and smile with laughter."

"Happiness looks too small when you hold it in your hands,

just let it go once, and you realize how precious it was."

"Happiness does not come in bottles."

"Happiness is worthless in money, but precious in your life."

"Happiness adds and multiplies when we divide it with others."

"To be happy is the choice I wish to make in spite of the circumstances that are strewn in my path."

HEARTBREAK:

"A heart breaking isn't always as loud as a bomb exploding..

Sometimes it can be as quiet as a feather falling..

And the most painful thing is, no one really hears it, except you.."

A heartbreak always a part of LOVE.

Weather how urge u wan't to ignore it, if it gonna happen, it will happen.

And we can't do anything but to accept it.

I got hurt many times.

And everytime it happens I always learned new lessons.

What should I do to make things more easier if destiny gives me a opportunity to LOVE again:

Even how long we practice, we can't make our relationships perfect.

There's always be a sadness and a heartbreak.

And i believe

"EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON"

And it is..

But sometimes I can't help but ask myself what are the reason?

And sadly, I can't find the answers.

Everyone of us, I know, want's to LOVE and BELOVED.

Especially ME.

But there are times we chose to be alone rather than to get hurt again.

That's ME.

But there are also times that we chose to Love again like we never been hurt.

Like ME.

Well what can we do?

Love is always in our lives.

We will never be stoped loving.

We always feel love, coz we love to love.

It's just that we afraid to show it,

Because were afraid to a

"HEARTBREAK"

"All of our young lives we search for someone to love, someone who makes us complete.

We choose partners and change partners.

We dance to a song of heartbreak and hope, all the while wondering if somewhere and somehow there is someone searching for us."

SADNESS:

"I always knew that looking back to the cries would make me laugh;

but I never knew that looking back to the laughs would make me cry."

I am sitting and facing to my computer wondering and thinking why I am "SAD"?

And came out with this blog.

I always make people around me happy. But why I can't be happy?

I've been like this for so long. And Im getting tired.

I wan't to see myself again what I am before.

Always smiling and laughing.

I can't control myself anymore. Even though im trying my best.

I smile and I laugh but behind of those smiling and laughters my heart is crying.

Hoping that someday I'll be ok.

Find my happiness.

I believe that people who feel sad, once they found their happiness. their never be sad again.

People are alone find their partner never be alone again.

People are crying find a shoulder to cry on will never cry again.

And people are not contented will be contented.

Sadness is a feeling that is hard to ignore.

Sadness is always in everybodys life.

Especially in me.

But I'm still hoping that "Someday, Oneday" everythings gonna be alright.

"Hearts are tough. Most of the times they don't break. Most times they only bend."

CRITICISM:

People criticize others by what? By their actions. The way they move and speak/talk. What their talking about etc. But who are they to criticize others? Who are you to talk to me like that? If my english language is not that good. So what? Why? Can you speak english fluently? As far i as know I can speak english more that you do. So don't act like you know everything. Look at your self, ask yourself if what you did is right. Your too boastful. I don't know you anymore. Your different now from what before. You know why? Because your being so Bitter. Let go. Everything is done. Accept it.

Im being hurt now by the person i did'nt expect to hurt me. He judge me like he don't know me. Well now I know what color your personality is. Stop hiding from your Good Looking Face. Because how beautiful ur out is how ugly you are inside. That's ashame. I really feel sorry for you. This person ask me onetime if why his friends and other people look at him like a boastful and plastic person. I don't know the answer before. But now I know. Because he just show me. And may be I saw it before but because hes my friend I never look at him like that.

Well Every person has a attitude. Me? Im sure I have.

I can accept opinions or corrections if it sed in a nice way.

"Look people for what are their best/correct not in their mistakes/wrong"

All about me

Me as a person I always make sure that all the people around me are happy and ok. As a EMOTIONAL person, sometimes it's hard to get along to other people. Being so EMOTIONAL, is sometimes pulling me to the limit. I sometimes did something that hurt others feelings. I usually/always hide my true feelings inside me. Always smile, laugh and throw some jokes everytime im in front, with or around people. But when I am alone, thats the time SADNESS strikes me. I always pray that hopefully sooner or later i can be happy again. No more hiding. I often cry in the middle of my sleep. Thingking why? Why me? Why Im always like this? Why I can't be happy? I always encounter a lot of difficulties. Sometimes i thought I was born to be like this the whole lifetime. But having a loving family, and so nice and kind friends, gives me the courage to fight and look forward for the best. So here I am, trying my very best to be happy. And hopefully soon i can smile, laugh and be as me, MYSELF again.

"I don't need anyone to take advantage of my weaknesses or my strengths, I need someone who will appreciate me for everything that I am."

"THIS IS ALL ABOUT ME"