Saturday, September 26, 2009
PAST IS PAST:
Friday, September 11, 2009
I MOVED ON: YES I AM!!!
I've been through in alot of heart troubles this past few years, months, weeks, days, hours, minutes and seconds.
But still I am standing here, looking forward in alot of things that can happen in my life. I never lose my confident in LOVE.
I can't say that I don't wanna love anymore again. I am willing to fall in love again and again and again,.. but in the right time. In time I know Im gonna fall inlove again ang get hurt all over again. But I am ready to face all the consequences if it's gonna happen.
I know I am not that strong but I can assure myself that I am not that weak either.
In LOVE I believe that theres alot out there can happen in just one click. We never know when we fall inlove again.
In my experience I know I need to learn more lessons to make myself more confident and stronger.
Looking at myself right now is like looking at a blank wall. NO COLOR. NO SHINE. NO LIFE.
BUT I MOVED ON!!!
Yes I am. Im going to stand straight again. Its hard to forget all of my heartache but I am willing to learn. I don't need to forget it. I just need to learn how to have a real life again. And be happy. Its hard but I know, time will come. I will be happy again.
"Love is a noble act of self-giving, offering trust, faith, and loyalty. The more you love, the more you lose a part of yourself, yet you don't become less of who you are; you end up being complete with your loved ones."
Saturday, September 5, 2009
I FELL IN LOVE AGAIN: "A SWEET SHORT LOVE"
The memories I will never ever forget in this relationship was 1. the first time we went out in a formal outfit. He has a friend whos celebrating a debut he ask me if I can be hes date.. Before that day I was wondering what kind of drees i should wear. I dont know. The day before we went to the mall. WOOO SHOPPING. And yah I finally found a dress and a cute sandals. The driver drop us in the hotel where the party is. Soo shy.. But He kiss me then sed ur so beautiful thats ok. AHAHA BOLA. After the party we went to starbucks (OMG STILL IN THAT DRESS) sooo shyy.. hehe..
The second was in his cousins wedding. We agreed that we were going to that wedding together. But the night before the wedding He called me saying that His cousin is in their house piccking him up coz he want to go to the wedding with my guy. That pissed me off. But its ok. So we decided that on the wedding day I need to go to their house so me and His family can go together. So I did. But the funny thing is I lied to Him. I told Him I can't go to the wedding because of the emergency thing happens. So he felt sorry. I arrived to their house around 4pm. So his two sisters and I are getting ready for the party. And roy keep texting me saying "I wish u were here" I was laughing out laud. So silly me. So when were at the car He called His sister, so this sister told him that Im with them. AHAHA no more surprise. But when we arrived to the reception and he open the door beside me. We was so surprise to one another, why? because Hes so handsome in a long sleeve black striped polo and He told me I am so beautiful in a Purple dress.. AHAHA BOLA.
Friday, September 4, 2009
MY THIRD TRUE LOVE: "A MOST LIKE DESTINY"
Thursday, September 3, 2009
MY SECOND TRUE LOVE: "MY LOVE CALLED SICK"
"The things I remember most about being in love,
is the joy that lasted for a while, the smiles, the way you held me,
and all the tears I cried for deceiving me."
"I wish that my mom would have told me the same thing about guys
as she did about horror movies when I was 5,
""Don't worry honey it's all fake!""
What memories i can't forget about this love was the way how we met. It's so awkward, strange and different. That no one can understand. It's just me and that guy. And I should just keep it as a secret.
He was so nice. So gentle. He's a Doctor. And theres saying that. An apple a day keeps the doctor away. AHAHAHA.. Even how hard i avoid him, He never gave up. He always there. He gave me flowers and stuff toys. But the thing He never forgot to gave me is fruits. He always bring me fruits. He wants me to be healthy. My mom love's Him so much. So as my sisters.
That guy was so quiet. If you look at Him, He looks like He can never brake glasses. He's so slow. But everytime were together, He always makes me feel so especial. He always sed to me that I am the most beautiful and special patient He had.. ahaha..
I would never ever forget the time we argued at the phone. I was so pissed that time. Just to make it up to me, He leave His duty at the hospital where His working. Still in His Doctor suit He went to our house to say sorry. Thats so sweet. And there was this one time I went home from mall I can't breathe. So my mom brought me to the hospital. After the doctor checked me, BOOOMMM there he is.. He leave His work again for me.. Soo sweet..
But still after a year and a half, our relationship end. He did a very big mistake. That makes me decide to break up with Him. That thing is the only thing He did that cause me a lot of tears. I never expected he can do that. He never cheated on me. He was so faithful, honest and loyal. But that thing, I really can't forgive him. But even though we end up like this. I am so happy were friends now. We sometimes hang on our favorite hangout. At starbucks Morato.. ahaha..
What happens to us makes me realize that no matter how nice the person is. Definitely can make big mistake that nobody can accept. Thats what happens to us. I can't accept the mistake He did so I broke up with Him. I was so hurt and devastated. But its all in the past now. A memory that i might keep a lifetime..
"Who says time heals?! You don't get OVER the pain,
you just learn to get ALONG with the pain, in time."
"They say there's more pleasure in loving than being loved ...
but do they know how painful it is if it's unrequited?"
"No love can hurt as much as the love that can never be.
And, no thoughts can hurt as much as the thoughts of a love that could have been."
But I can see myself love and beloved again...
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
MY FIRST TRUE LOVE: "THE T.V SERIES LIKE"
I fell in love and got hurt so many times. I still remember the day when my heart was first broken. That love, I will never ever forget. That love will always be a part of me. That time was so difficult for me. The situation is so crazy. I felt so alone that time. Hurt and angry at the same time. I don't know who are the true people anymore. I want to, But I can't trust anyone. It's hard to be in a relationship that in both party they can't accept the situation or the relationship. You have to be strong. But sometimes there still a moment that I can't handle it anymore. Even though how hard we fight there still a time I found myself crying. And praying that everythings be accepted and respect.
That love, ohh that love. It's like a T.V series. To much actions and dramas. I never expected to be in that situation. Our friends sometimes told us that, the kind and situation we have in a relationship can be put in T.V, which is we agreed, then laugh.
I still remember the time we had misunderstanding. Just to make it up to me. He did'nt went to school, instead He waited me outside my school and then when He saw me with my friends He stand up in front of me holding a boquet of flowers and saying His sorry. I was so shocked and the only thing i did is put my hands in my mouth and sed " Oh my God HOWEH". Everybody looking at me. Looks like they are waiting if im gonna forgive Him or not. But ofcoures i forgive Him, coz I am not a stone hearted person. Imagine a guy infront of u holding flowers and telling you hes sorry. Thats so sweet. And so heart melting scene. And then after, we went to the mall watch a movie, then eat at chowking (beefwanton with not so hot, hot sauce), then we went to baywalk. It's felts so amazing if your with the guy you really love and having a so natural conversation while walking. Laughing, holding hands.
Thats one of our more happy moments together. But that love now is just a memory. Deserve to be kept and cherish. Now were just friends. But a good friend.
"Love is always patient and kind, it's never jealous.
Love is never boastful or concieted, it is never rude or selfish,
it is not take offense, it is not resendable."
"You will never forget your first love. That's what makes it so special. You love so hard, so deeply, and so intensely because you don’t know any different. It's the best until it is over. Then you hurt like you've never been hurt before. Eventually you love again, but you love differently. You will love more carefully, more cautiously. Just know that there is so much more love waiting for you, but there will always only be one first."